So, I have been annoyed with them since this occurred. I have tried to pray about it for everyone to be blessed and I kept telling God I know it was wrong to be upset, but the annoyance would not go away. Today, it was like God was poking me trying to annoy me. =D So I told Him that I was annoyed and hurt by what they did. I knew I shouldn’t be mad because that isn’t the “Christian” thing to do, but I was. As soon as I said it, it struck me what I had been doing. I have been ignoring my feelings and trying to be righteous when that process of denial was dragging me further away from it.
Why do we get so caught up with what we think we should do, that we try and ignore what is right in front of us?
This happens more with emotional issues than physical. If I cut my finger, I don’t hold my hand behind my back and tell myself I know it is really ok. No, I address and clean the wound. Why is it so hard to treat emotional wounds the same way? It is still a wound. Even if I cant see it, I can feel it.
Maybe it is the pressure that we face trying to put forth our best Jesus face. We are to reflect Jesus to the world, so we should be above such petty issues. The problem is that we still encounter emotional issues that have to be dealt with. Withholding them from God is a pointless process. He already knows and wants us to share it with Him. How else do you get healing until you make Him the God of that issue instead of trying to deal with it yourself?
I would like to say I wont do this again, but I know that I will. I just hope I am quicker to turn it over next time around.