I have been away from this blog for a little while now and I am finally starting to feel the draw to come back and write. I believe I have stated before that Christians have a responsibility to share aspects of their lives with other Christians in order to help them know they are not alone in their struggles. The biggest struggle I have been dealing with is “not wanting to”.
I struggle with a great many things these days. I struggle with how Christians are acting over COVID 19. I struggle with how they act over wearing a mask. I struggle with how American Christianity has become about politics and setting up a loose theocracy than spreading the Gospel.
I struggle with how foreign many Christians seem to me.
I struggle with God at times. On what it all means. What does the Bible really mean? The murder, lying, cheating, theft….the sins go on and on. What do they mean?
I struggle because the struggle brings growth.
All Christians should be struggling.
We should be learning what the Bible says. Finding out what it means. We should listen to others, but we really should be doing more listening to God.
For a long time, I received too much of my Christian knowledge from pastors. I would listen to them and take it all in as absolute truth. I struggled when God showed me they were flawed and often so was the message.
I struggle while watching others going through the same battles I did. That I still have.
I do not struggle with saying that I struggle. Too many times, Christians feel alone in their struggles as it is not something brought up in the church.
We are told how God can do all things, but that message never comes with how it will happen or the pain and struggle it will require.
So I give to you what church did not give to me…the feeling of not being alone with my questions and doubts. I pray that you find people near you that can help you see you are not alone.
I pray more though that with the fears and doubts, that you push into God. Not to fix it or explain everything, but so that you will see that He does not leave you when you struggle
That is why I struggle.